This letter is part of the International Institute for Social History's Alexander Berkman archive and appears in Anarchy Archives with ISSH's permission.
Petrograd, June 29, 1920
P.S. Dearest Girl:
Can add a line. This letter is to go per a friend, in a few days. Tomorrow we leave for the South. Will stop at Moscow for about a week. Nothing special to add to my letter, only that I miss you extremely, and am very anxious to know whether I may expect a meeting. In any part of the world. I hope you will soon find a way to get in touch with me. -- I have written so many letters without getting a single line in reply that I have not the heart to write any more.
Much love to you. Kindly remember me to Pauline, Maxie, Stella, and the whole family-- large and small.
Darling Stell and Lioness. Last Sunday was the 27th of June, the saddest day for me in many years. Not that I was completely forgotten by our friends. In fact it was most touching to get flowers from people who spent a whole month salary, two thousand rubles for several roses. But with you my children so far away the 27th made me feel cast out. It is awful to be turn out root and all from ones moorings thrown into a new and strange land. Try as one may one cannot adjust oneself to the new setting and circumstances. But one must learn to bear up under great strain. We are going on a journey that is something, at least we will get in touch with the people and learn their reaction to the great change. Then too, we will see Russia. What a strange and mysterious land it is. If only we could have news from you, just a word would relieve the tension. I do so hope we may find something in Moscow. Well, dearest ones it must be hot in NY. I hope you are out somewhere in the cool. I suppose Teddy is painting in Woodstock. I met a very interesting painter here, Futurist, he and several other painters are anxious to arrange an exhibition in America. I hope they succeed. I must close dearest mine. My heart is heavy with longing for you.
Love to all our people and near ones. Love to you both. I embrace and kiss you both. Kiss our darling for me.